Confusion

I'm currently addicted to the song ' Ru Guo Ni Ye Ting Shuo ' by Ah Mei. This song is really nice eventhough i dont remember how to sing or understand what is she singing. lol. Sigh, i'm still having a terrible headache and i' m super upset. I just cant get over it yet. Okay, one more year? I DONT THINK SO. Okay make it half a year? Damn. I dont know. I really dont know. What should i do? I'm useless. Yes, very. I was given totally a year yet i could not do it. I prove nothing through out the whole year. You suck, teoh kai wen. You really suck. I used to make a deal with somebody, i guess i would have to let you down. I'm sorry. It's so near now, i mean few more days left only/ Hahaha even if i'm a robot i know i can never do it. I feel ashamed to ask for another year, but i'll still try my best to do it. And i bet you totally forgotten about it? HAHA

I miss Ruby. Very much.

My precious woman

Gave mom a call just now but i did not get a chance to wish her. She's already on her way to Rome and this is so awesome that she gets to celebrate her 40th birthday in Rome. How wonderful. Ha ha. And one more week plus two days to go till she is back. I'm still waiting ):

Dear Mom,

I love you and want you to know, I think of you often wherever I go.You lift me up; you're like walking sunshine; I am really lucky to have a great mother like mine. Your endless affection makes you special and rare; I'm always amazed by how much you care. What you've given to me I can never repay.

Thank you, Mom, on your 40th birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

You're the most important person in my entire life that no one can ever replace you in my heart.

JS! :D

Oh. This is hot. Nyeh

Two more days, and it's mom's birthday. She is going to celebrate all by alone in Paris. I wish she's here and we could celebrate together. Too bad. Man i gotta wait for one more week plus three days for her to retun. So long. Then it's dad's turn to leave to China. Darn pissed off, I think i'm gonna stay in Ipoh for the whole holidays. Damn. Ok, i'm actually waiting patiently for my new Japanese friend to come over. lol lol. And, cousin sis and bro in law are coming back from Aust in less than a week. Wondering if sis's stomach is getting bigger or not Hahaha. Even, cousins from Singapore are coming back soon, too. Whoooops, i cant wait to see em' Ah Ma's house gonna be real noisy lousy when everyone are back hehehh.

I'm having a real bad headache and my head is going to burst soon. I cant stand it anymore. Panadols again, pls!!!!

I seriously feel like going to Kampar tomorrow. I've never been to there before. & i wanna go visit them. But due to somebody's friend is back from kl so we have to cancel off the plan, like again. This is already the forth or fifth time i tell you. I'm gonna tell mom when she is back ( Ahaha okay joking joking ) Like what meiyee said, i'm sure gonna ffk again this time ): Sigh. YOU DONT DRIVE ME THERE NEXT WEEK, IM' MA GONNA KILL YOU!

Anyway,



I came across this video in somebody's blog. Fell in love with them the moment I hear this.
MUST LISTEN! They're so gorgeous, especially Sonia, the grey shirt girl. AND they have great voice too. Total perfection.

The truth

I trully understand how Sis Weili is feeling right now, she must be feeling it's like totally end of the world. This is really a great cuffing blow for her, i guess. She's a really sweet girl, i can tell. Plus she is good to each and everyone of us. Eventhough she is not a part of our family anymore, still she comes and visit us like usual instead we're getting more closer than before. Seriously, she is just like a sister to us, and i cant believe that tears drop down my cheeck when i got her long text telling that ' i'll be fine, take care..

And so, she gave a call this afternoon when i was still asleep telling that she is on the way coming to my house to bring me out for lunch. Called dad immediately telling that some friend coming to pick me up for lunch as i cant tell the truth/ Or else, he's not going to allow. We talked alot about everything, i'm glad that she's okay a lil bit now as the days before she looked real dead she said. Yep, i can see that she had cried alot due to this thing. Sigh, i know i cant help much but still i can share her sadness with her to make her feel better.

I'll always be there for you.

28/ 11 ♥

A superb outing,

Jess came and gave a super ride. And we headed to jj. Seriously, she was so funny with her driving skills man. LOL instead of using the shortcuts, she took the super long way hahahahah! And was screaming all the way to jj lol lol. We were supposed to reach jj within few minutes but it took her more than ten minutes to reach HA HA HA! (Ok, please dont kill me if you read this :P) Meiyee came later on, and she's always the latest one. I mean like forever.

Tbh, today was great. YES REALLY. Spent most of the time in Kbox and had so much fun & laughers there. As you know, there are no where else better to go in jj except cinema or kbox. Later on meiyee c, waiyee and chuiann came and joined us for a while. It's been so long i last met em' Walked around after that and waited for the two mafarn ppl to try on their damn clothes for few hours lol. Then MY's boyf came and we went home at almost nine.

Heh you made my day :D
And, I'm glad to sing the so awesomeeeeeeeee song, with you. ily

Can you feel my heartbeat?

So, you think your boyf will ever do that to you? Heh :)

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• give her one of your hoodies to wear so everyone knows shes yours.
• leave her cute text/notes.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
• look at her like she’s the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she’s sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she’s sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she’s important.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you’ve never lovedsomeone before.
• and,when she runs up at you crying…the first thing you say is…”who’s ass am i beating today?

So sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet <3

Yep, you <3

I miss you.

Ice cream, anyone?

So as in like my title, Jump then fall. And then die! :D isn't it perfect? HA HA.
And, i realize no one's perfect in my life. No one.

I actually have so much to blog about, but i'm suddenly out of words. So yep. I'll just talk a lil. I feel very weird again lately. I mean like usual, actually. It's holiday now, and i guess everyone are enjoying their lovely holidays, except me. Yes me, who stay all alone by myself at home talking to nobody seriously :S

Results day is coming very near, and i've no idea how am i gonna face it.
I know for sure i'm gonna let em' down. I do not have faith in myself.
But ey holidays now, am i suppose to enjoy it first rather than complaining about that later?

But no, this sucks. I cant stand it anymore. I miss mom, i miss everything so much. I want to go for a holiday. I know i need to leave and take a deep breathe. I realised whatever happens, happens. Crying will only help release the pain in my heart, so cry. But if it can’t be fixed, then don’t even try to fix it. Whatever is happening will pass, and it won’t even matter in 10 years, will it?? Okay whatever it is that i am trying to get over.

I'm into that korean drama, Winter Sonata song again. You'll eventually think of me singing to you when i'm gone one day! (:

PS : Dear SY, i actually didn't know you do read my blog. A bit of shock anyway. You know, you should've tell me earlier right hahaha. And yep, i'm glad that you still take me as a good friend too eventhough we ain't that close anymore ): This is so sad. But hey, i still love you, very very much. Heheehe!

Oh lei hui sei by Ah Ng

Kaiwen says:
*Ngo hou sien
*lei lea?

JEANYENN ;paranoia attack? says:
*Me too

Kaiwen says:
*YOU CANNOT
*follow me one
*your own opinion

JEANYENN ;paranoia attack? says:
*Hahhahah
*Lei hui sei

Kaiwen says:
*Ohhh
*ngo hou sien! lei lea
*jy > lei hui sei
*wah so nice combination

JEANYENN ;paranoia attack? says:
*Hahhahahahahah
*So nice wei

HAHAHA! She damn siao, i tell you

Hehehee

Bie was already outside the gate when i was actually still bathing. She came over and drove me around, she knows that i am bored so as a very good friend she drove all the way from her house to bring me out :) Went to all over the boutiques and she cant even get herself a single dress. Ha ha ha.

Nothing much headed to jj later on, as we've no idea where to go. Walked around and came home. lol
She's so nice that she promise to drive me to some places that i've been craving to go so much next wed, yes her ONLY off day ): Still, it's okay hahah!



Bie, thanks for being my driver everytime whenever i wanna go anywhere.
Love you heaps

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I was out to pasar malam last night and jeng jeng jeng I bumped into a sweet girl, Sinyee dear :D Yep she is really so sweet. And, I remembered she was once my sister and i dont even know are we actually still? Hahahah. But i was really happy to see her there, and it's been so long i never see or talk to her in real life. Despite we did not talk much yesterday, yeh i somehow feel a bit awkward as we used to be so close during primary but not now anymore. Yet, she's still that loveable heh heh!